Week's events

5th August : PBM's VIVA LA ANUGERAH
The arrival of the Acehnese kids

7th August : Went to Indo Embassy with them

8th August : Official Welcoming for them

9th August : Went around whole of CBD area and ended the
day with fireworks atop Suntec Tower 6

10th August : More tuitions and dropped by Ikea with Sarah
and Di

11th August : Surprise party for Aidil at Sentosa

12th August : More tuitions and dropped by Changi for Reperio
BBQ


The week's been crazy mentally and physically. By today I think I went almost nuts though I managed to compose myself. Half of the tuitions that I do I do it to help people ( so said my welfare mum) so you-know-what-that-means... I dont usually complain about this because seriously I only put my best best when Im teaching my cousins because they are the only ones who are taking my tutoring seriously. So fair lah it takes two to clap. Its just this week. With the kids and the tuitions and the mobots and the surprise and only my 24hrs a day and some fcuking irritating people.

Ive only genuinely and thoroughly enjoyed myself when Im with the kids which I dont get to follow for half the time due to other commitments and uncooperative people.Dammit lah this may be the last time I get to spend time with them ever in my whole life but I cant freaking cancel tuition.

After them what I would really like to do is to meet the girlfriends and talk over ice cream and chocolate and coffee and cupcakes and just lambast about anything and everything.

But sometimes I dont know if some of my friends are my friends anymore. We go out for the sake of going out and connect now on a more superficial level and also maybe for the sake of hanging on to what we once had. I miss these people. I shant divulge names because I dont know if its just me or what.

Ok fine I am P-M-S-I-N-G ok but that doesnt mean that I was talking shit above.

Ive been the worst girlfriend ever for the past few weeks. Minus the surprise which I had hoped will offset my bad attitude. But NO. Shant say more. I just feel like shit. My fault or not? Am I thinking too much for others?


My priorities are being reshuffled.


Gosh but I miss him.


Im very jealous when I see people with happy families. Like when things go wrong they have family to fall back on. I lack that. Its not all bad but maybe Im in denial that its not all bad.




Anyways dont ask me to lead a blind man ever.Jan and Fik will totally agree.

The only person I really miss the most everytime Im out is not even a person. Its Garfield.

Bodoh.

Ok lah next entry will just be pictures. They'll say their thousand words ok.

Ha ha ha diana.


I better tuck in now.


/hugs myself


My mum keeps reminding me to do everything in the name of Allah and not to complain because eventually all the good things you do will be recognised by him. Thats the only thing that keeps me going.HIS love.

Dada!

=))

(Goo Goo Dolls)

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am