C'est impossible!

I wanted to touch on something but when I started to type it down it seemed sooo none-of-my-business-y so I like deleted them all...

Sometimes I wonder how other people think about me...Not to say that Im a narcissist or that Im not but I constantly worry if I offend others with my random gestures or comments or just passing remarks... Sometimes you may say things which you think are just jokes but they actually hurt that person a lot because you dont know what that person may have gone through such that that supposed joke cuts cleanly through him/her right through.... I get those sometimes which is why I dont want others to especially not cos of whatever I say...

I dont like it when people start to judge me....Then again who does right... I care do much about what others think and feel that I neglect my own self sometimes... God tells us to be patient... Rationally we say we have to fight for our rights and not be a coward and just sit down and take it all in... But whoever said that being patient and taking it all in is a cowardly act...

But to err is human and we forget that sometimes.... My patience does have its limits and needless to say I do get out of control sometimes but no one other than family has seen that side of me yet not that Im super proud of it....

I dont know about you but I wake up almost everyday thinkin that its the last and fearing what holds for me after that if you know what Im refering to...

Im certainly not anticipating that DAY.... Im trying hard to change given these surroundings... Trying to stop totally the inhibitions, the vices... My kinda vices...

Ok enough of back-to-reality words-of-wisdom...

I saw this pair of red heels with a butterfly motif thingy at Tang&Co going for 60bucks (what a deal I know!) and the grave mistake I made was to try one on in my size... ( This isnt in my list of vices ok!)

Went shopping with Aes and Liyana for Liyana's ball...( Tu sebab!) I think the whole colour palette of the outfit... Can never go wrong with golds-cremes-beiges.... Wish I have a ball to go to! Hahaha... Im sure lah konon CinderDiana...

Talking bout that..Teringat that time Aidil surprised me with a candlelight dinner at Clementi Woods! HAhahahaah! With help from 'butlers' HADRI and PRAVIN! Hahahahaha.... Imagine lah my surprise.... Doesnt matter how amateurish it was but its just damn sweet lah coming from Aidil... They went all the way to Ikea to get the utensils and West Coast Food Centre(ok this one not really all the way) for food... Hahaha....

Oh for the BBQ I forgot to thank Afiah (another organiser) Hadri ( for the house and for cooking for us without eating himself) Had's maid ( for helping us clean and set up the pseudoBBQ pit) =)

These MATS are really one helluva great bunch of people to hang out with.... "And I saw your face...GONE CASE..." sang Jan to Im not sure who... This is just one of the random things that they do...No wonder Aidil has withdrawal symptoms if he doesnt meet them at least once a week... Just being with them instantly lifts your sorrow and pain ( but really!) They are DAMN lame and crappy and noisy but its all in the name of fun... They play hard AND work hard... There's no pressure when with them... They dont shape each other but that doesnt mean they dont care.... When the need arises they act... They're just FUN...

Anyway my new room fan is super strong even when its only at level one, its spinning like its gonna explode... Haha... I didnt try level three though... Maybe it works the other way round... Hahaha that'll be damn bodoh...

I went solo shopping at Bugis and Ive set my eye on this one top...Because its over the buy-on-the-spot budget Im giving myself a week to see if Im still thinking bout it by then... Haha tactic bagus eh? Oh and me and Aidil actually were talking bout making the Espana tee and since its useless if I wear it since the word Espana will be vaguely visible we decided to make a tudung one..Hahaha ingenius! Red tudung much like the one I just bought with Espana in egg-yolk yellow velvet on one of the triangle sides... Totally UN-tacky!


I love fashion... I think Singaporeans should make more effort in looking good and complete when going out to roam the streets... Taking pride in one's looks doesnt necessarily equate to being bimbotic or vain... In fact it doesnt equate to that!Unless of course you're dressed for the wrong occasion... Be it going to the pasar or for a date effort should be pumped in accordingly... As the saying goes, 'How can you look good when you dont feel good...' I also believe in the otherwise...'How can you feel good if you dont look good...'Seriously dont you think so?

Wearing the tudung also isnt an excuse to not be up to date fashion wise and whoever says that its expensive to be fashionable...


Im just killing time before the next match lah... Its freaking rainin... How to go down....

happy 42nd months-ry !

Ok Ill go away now.....Toodles yous!